Am I wrong to feel offended?

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Because of the massive lockdown in the region of Luzon, many of our citizens are left with no jobs and no income. Many work on a day to day basis. If they don’t work, they won’t get paid. Such is the case for some of our relatives and friends as well. Sometime on the second week of the lockdown, my husband already sent out financial aid to some colleagues, friends and relatives – a total of about 25 people, if I got that right. It was the least we could do. If we weren’t on strict quarantine here in the province, we’d be willing to drive around and bring food and other goods to immediate relatives and the closest of our friends. One day, I got a message via Facebook messenger from a former classmate in grade school. We’re connected on FB but rarely chatted. In fact, we chatted only once before when I approved her friend request which was more than a year ago. She asked how I’ve been doing and started referring to me as “bestie.” Sure, there was one year in grade school that we were close because we were both competitive dancers. But I don’t recall that we were ever the best of friends. Anyway, I replied that I’m okay and wished her well. And then she asked for money, saying that she hasn’t received any relief goods and that her family is in Manila, far from her. Instantly, I felt offended. So she messages me after a long time and then asks for money? Of course, I felt guilty for feeling that way too. How selfish of me. People resort to desperate measures during desperate times. I had to ask some of our classmates if her account was legit and if she was also asking money from them. As it appears, I’m the only classmate that she’s requested money from. And that’s okay, except that I could only send thru PayPal at the moment and she doesn’t have that account. I even dared to drive to the supermarket last week to look for a remittance center but it was closed. I told her that establishments here are closed and that she’ll have to wait until the lockdown is lifted. Our community enforces very strict measures and we cannot just go to any place we want at any time. Also, I don't go out every time for fear of contracting the virus. Of course, I feel bad for not sending her anything. I’ve sent financial aid to others via PayPal as soon as requests were made. I’ve made donations via PayPal as well. And even if I took slight offense with what she did, I’d be willing to send her money **RIGHT AWAY** if only she had a PayPal account. But still, she insists that I send her money through other means even if I can’t do that at the moment. Oh well. Does it look like I’m the only friend she’s had through the years? I don't think so. Now I’m hoping that remittance centers nearby would open soon so I can send her money and be done with it. Sorry if I seem so selfish. I just wish some people would understand that I don’t secrete money all the time…