It's Been A Month

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A month ago today, August 29th, my brother passed away. It's hard to believe it's been a month as it still almost feels like yesterday. I'm not looking forward to the next few months. Chuck's birthday is October 13th. Halloween was his favorite holiday, with Christmas next. He decorated for every holiday except Valentines day. He always made such a big deal and went all out with meals even though it was always just us. I know I won't be decorating this year but hope I will be able to next year to carry it on for him. With all of the holidays, this next year will be so hard. But with the support of all of mylot friends, I know I will get through it. I've almost gotten used to being alone now during the week day. Chuck worked so I was used to being alone during the day. The nights and weekends still get to me. During the week he would come home from work and vent to me about his day. He would then make dinner and then we would watch our favorite shows on TV. On the weekends, he would cook enough for two days. I miss him so much that my heart hurts. I try to shut out all of those memories and I do good during the day, but the nights and weekends break me down. I know that only time will heal and this is something I have to go through in order to heal but it hurts so much. I still can't watch our favorite tv shows, but I do have them recorded, hoping one day I can. I don't want this post to sound like I'm not progressing because I have. Not a lot, but I'm slowly getting there. I want to thank all of you again for your support. Hopefully one day soon, I can write a post about something other than my brother.