Getting Used To Working

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Hi, I just wanted to ask, this is an embarrassing question. First, it's because when I was younger, a baby, I had meningitis and got a surgery. That surgery caused me to have seizures, lose ability of my left arm, lost a hearing from my left ear, have trouble concentrating, and learning and a few more affects. Since then my parents never let me do any work. I was spoiled, lol I'll say it straight out. All programs and activities my parents made my brothers do, they never let me because of my condition. When it was time to learn what work really is, when my dad wanted to take me, I would cry and so he'll just take my brothers and me stay with my mom. I turned 30 a few years ago and I just realized that I am a low life loser, a worthless person, etc. I just don't know what to do with the rest of my remaining life. I think I found my passion but then again I'm not sure. I hate construction but people who want me to work there say I am a lazy guy. I mean do I have to like it, is it ok to hate it as long as I have something to aim for to keep myself busy like computers? Am I gonna be a lazy bum because I never worked in my life, how can I get used to it or even like it? You know those memes when they put when it's Monday, a witch looking face of a person, that's like literally me and I need help. Every night besides Friday and Saturday I get this anger in my chest because of work the next day. Will I be able to enjoy working or at least not mind it? I am really confused just because I don't know anything and feel everything will be hard for me to do, since I'm not used to working, I feel like I want to get the easiest job. I feel like wanting to know everything of the jobs there are out there like electronics, computers, designing, etc but I know it's only one and stick to it. Thanks