My Life Has Changed Forever
@BelleStarr (61102)
United States
December 3, 2021 4:37am CST
I’m not even sure how to say this bu Al, my husband for 53 years has passed away. He drifted into the next life without a sound , I was sitting next to him and wasn’t even aware until I went to take an ear temperature. He was such a gentle loving person it was what he deserved after the struggle he had been having breathing Tuesday. I believe that pneumonia was the cause of the breathing issue and morphine the cause of death. He was under hospice care at Kasey’s house and my son Steve the nurse was with us most of the day.
He will be cremated. We have a private mass being said today and then we will gather at Steve’s house. Kasey lives much farther away from everyone else and Jason us also out in the woods.
I am gutted needless to say but he always told me he wanted to go first. I did give him permission to go if God called and it seems he did.
I have a great support system but of course no can take the place of my best friend and love of my life since I was 14 years old.
With Parkinson’s I knew this is likely how he would go but I certainly hoped it would be in the far distant future. If not for the pandemic I am quite sure it would have been.
Keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
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@LadyDuck (471255)
• Switzerland
6 Dec 21
@BelleStarr You are doing the right thing, fill your head with wonderful memories, it's all what we need to do. Take care of yourself Belle.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
8 Dec 21
Thank you, he will be greatly missed by everyone who knew him.
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@changjiangzhibin89 (16754)
• China
3 Dec 21
Sorry to learn that you lost your husband ! Hope you can reconcile yourself to it and take care of yourself !
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@RebeccasFarm (89832)
• Arvada, Colorado
9 Dec 21
@BelleStarr Very welcome my dear Belle xo
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@Juliaacv (51045)
• Canada
3 Dec 21
I was thinking of you, Al and Kasey and the kids this week.
I am sorry for your loss, and that for your family.
RIP Al.
You opened your heart and shared so much of your private feelings and every day life during the good times and the bad times. I know that you inspired me in ways that I cannot begin to express. Thank you for that.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
8 Dec 21
I am glad you were inspired, the love Al gave me made me strong and I was able to provide the care he needed. I am trying to wrap my head around what life without him will be.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
8 Dec 21
@Juliaacv Thank you for reminding me of that, I forget that yes, all of them are a little piece of him!!
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@Juliaacv (51045)
• Canada
8 Dec 21
@BelleStarr You are surrounded by his love, you always will be. And don't forget that loving family, those grandsons, whom I have always marveled over their commitment to both you as well as Al, and of course your children, and that special bond that you share with Kasey. There is a little bit of Al in all of them, and that will keep his spirit alive.
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@Elizaby (6902)
• Pensacola, Florida
3 Dec 21
Sad to hear that Al passed in the night, but comfort that he went peacefully while asleep to wake up in heaven..
A song came to mind when I read this and I am sharing the words here. It is on UTube(Don Mohn or Truth if you want to hear the song) and is called if You could see me now "Our prayers have all been answered and I finally arrived. the healing that had been delayed has now been realized. No one's in a hurry there's no schedule to keep We're all enjoying Jesus just sitting at his feet. (Chorus) If you could see me now I'm walking streets of gold If you could see me now I'm standing tall and whole If you could see me now You'd know I'd seen His face If you could see me now You'd know the pain erase you wouldn't want me to ever leave this perfect place If you could only see me now.
My light and temporary trials Have worked out for my good To know it brought Him glory when I misunderstood
Though we've had our sorrows They can never compare what Jesus has in store for us no language can compare You wouldn't want me to ever leave this perfect place if you could only see me now..
Will be praying for you and family 6 people like this
@snowy22315 (180362)
• United States
3 Dec 21
So sorry Belle Starr... You do have a lovely family that will give you support and comfort in this. May God rest his soul.
. You do have a lovely family that will give you support and comfort in this. May God rest his soul.4 people like this
@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
10 Dec 21
Thank you, yes I do have a great family but Al was my world and I just need to refocus.
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@snowy22315 (180362)
• United States
10 Dec 21
@BelleStarr It isn't something you will get over, but you will learn to live with it. The pain will fade in time. So sorry!
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@wolfgirl569 (105820)
• Marion, Ohio
3 Dec 21
So sorry. I will be thinking of all of you. It is good to hear he went peacefully.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
10 Dec 21
Thank you, yes it could not have been more peaceful
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@1creekgirl (41387)
• United States
3 Dec 21
Oh Belle, I can't tell you how heartbreaking it is to hear this. I know God blessed you both with each other all these years. I will pray for God's loving mercy to comfort you and all your family.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
8 Dec 21
Thank you Vicki, the pain is worse than anything I could have imagined but I know he is safe and well and beneath it all I am happy he is free of the body that betrayed him in the end. But I dearly loved that body!!
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@1creekgirl (41387)
• United States
8 Dec 21
@BelleStarr Oh Belle, my heart is breaking for you and all your precious family. You'll be in my prayers especially through the holidays.
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@Courtlynn (67085)
• United States
3 Dec 21
I know it doesn't take away your pain or the loss of your bestfriend, childrens father and husband but I am so very sorry for your loss. 
I will be keeping you in my thoughts, especially today.
I will be keeping you in my thoughts, especially today.4 people like this
@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
8 Dec 21
Thank you and you know you are always in mine as well.
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@Shavkat (139672)
• Philippines
17 Jan 22
@BelleStarr You described it well. Thank you.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
15 Jan 22
@Shavkat I am so sorry to hear that. Losing your mother is a pain like no other.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
28 Jan 22
Thank you so much. I am struggling but I have good support
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
28 Jan 22
@akalinus I know then you understand the feeling of being lost I am suffering from. I am getting a little stronger as time goes on
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@akalinus (43173)
• United States
28 Jan 22
@BelleStarr I'm so glad that you do. I lost my honey in 2016 and it is not fun. I was so lucky I had my son there to help me. He is a real blessing to me.
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@DeborahDiane (40288)
• Laguna Woods, California
4 Dec 21
@BelleStarr - I am so sorry to hear this. I know how hard this is. My husband is very ill, and we have been married for 50 years. I worry all the time about losing him. You are right, though, that it is good that he slipped away peacefully. I hope that happens when the time comes for my husband, too. I am glad you have a good support system. I will hold you in my prayers.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
12 Jan 22
Thank you so much. Nothing can prepare you for this loss, it is like losing yourself. We have been Al & Iz for so long
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
15 Jan 22
@DeborahDiane he does and he was ready to leave his broken body and go some place better. I just miss being part of a pair, it is a hard adjustment.
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@DeborahDiane (40288)
• Laguna Woods, California
12 Jan 22
@BelleStarr - I know you must be heartbroken. I know that it will be very hard when I lose my husband. Take care of yourself, as best you can. I'm sure he wants the best for you. 
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
12 Jan 22
Thank you and yes a gaping hole in your life.
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@RubyHawk (99405)
• Atlanta, Georgia
12 Jan 22
@BelleStarr It is and i don’t know if that hole can ever be filled.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
15 Jan 22
@RubyHawk I suspect not we just learn to live with it.
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@BelleStarr (61102)
• United States
10 Dec 21
Thank you the hug is much appreciated
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