Broken

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Well, I'm dating this guy. At least I think I am. I was. I don't know. After I broke up with Tony, we went for a walk, and talked and we started seeing each other. And it has been amazing. We like the same things, we like each other, and we've been having fun. Chemistry. Discussions. Movies. Music. Everything. We could be amazing together. But he's "broken". His words. You see, he's had a number of bad experiences with women. First wife cheated because he was a workaholic. Second wife cheated and threw it in his face, then when they broke up, she brought a false domestic violence claim in their divorce, which meant losing his guns and his career in law enforcement. When he was working on his PHD, several of the women at the University got upset that he said as a police office he had seen women commit domestic violence, and they tried to sabotage his degree. Then the third wife had mental health issues, and when they broke up she threatened to claim domestic violence, so he paid her off basically so he wouldn't lose his guns again. The last two were abusive to his disabled brother and his dogs too. Well, we started getting close, and a lot of that was his idea. He's impulsive. His words again. Anyway, recently he starting having nightmares that he hadn't been having for over two years. He says it's not me, that I'm perfect, that it's any woman who tries to get close. So we're taking a break. I suggested we start completely over. We take a walk together and then we go to our separate homes. If if doesn't trigger a trauma response, we do it again. Eventually, we graduate to dinner or a movie. If that doesn't trigger anything, well, one step at a time, and if it takes months, that's OK. He's thinking about it, and I'm waiting to hear. I give it about a 50 50 chance. I guess it depends on how bad the PTSD really is, and how much he wants it to work out with me. I sure can pick them, eh?