My Son Nearly Left This World!

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I woke Wednesday morning with a nagging feeling in my gut that something was wrong. I gave my kiddo her breakfast and looked at my messages while I made my coffee. As I read the messages from my daughter and ex-daughter in law I started to panic. They said my son messaged them to say goodbye. I looked at his Facebook page and saw disturbing videos. I knew he was in distress. I realized that my 22 was missing. I called my son and got no answer. I then called 911 to report that my son was suicidal and had my 22. They dispatched me to the state troopers. When I finished my call with them my phone rang. It was my son crying and telling me that he shot himself and he didn't want to be alone. Said he couldn't feel his legs. I asked where he was. He was at the brook where he always went to meditate. I told him to hang on and breathe!!! I then called 911 for an ambulance. I stood in my driveway as sheriffs cars were Speedo up the road. They stopped to get more information from me. I was frantic and lost my composure and couldn't stop crying. A car pulled in my driveway and the lady asked if I was okay. I almost said yes I was okay. But I shook my head and said no. She got out of the car and hugged me then asked what she could do. I went I stand told Little Miss to go to my friends house next door. I called her to let her know what was going on. She said not to worry as she would keep Little Miss as long as I needed her too. The officers were not looking in the right place and I yelled out that they need to find a place where there was a refrigerator in the water. When one particular officer heard that he knew exactly where my son was. The rescue squad, members of our local fire department, and sheriff's department pulled him from a steep embankment. I freaked when I heard LifeNet was canceling because of the weather. The rescue squad drove him to a hospital in the next state. My brother, and his wife and nieces came to support me. I needed them so badly. Friends also came to offer me a shoulder. The lady that pulled over stayed with me and even drove me to the hospital. She stayed til my son was in recovery. Told me she would take me to visit my son on Friday. He made it through the surgery but woke in severe pain. He had narrowly missed his heart, but the bullet had ricocheted off a rib and hit his lung, stomach, intestines and damaged his diaphragm. This had been his third attempt at leaving this world. He said he doesn't know why he's still here. I told him that God has a plan for him and it wasn't his time. He said that it's time to figure out what that plan is and learn to love his life. Thank you dear Lord for continuing to watch over my children. I am ever grateful.