Update with my mom and me

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So many things are happening in my life right now. My mother is not yet as good as we want her to be. My youngest sister posted about the condition of my mother in Facebook and a lot of people respond and send us money to help us in her cancer treatment. Our church also ask for special offering for my mom and we get 11,000 pesos last Sunday. Honestly I feel weak and anxious every time I see my mother. She has tube in her nose so that she won't vomit often. She has 2 small pouch on her stomach to drain fluid build up. She cannot eat solid food or she will vomit. She need a very expensive milk like IV fluid as her food everyday. It seems we have already spent half a million for her treatment. I already want to give up but I still want to fight. I'm still praying for extension of life. She is now having complication because of cancer as her cancer metastasized into her abdomen and liver.. Should I give up or should I still be hopeful? Yesterday my family want me to see the ob-gyne too for my menorrhagia and myoma. I go because I want to meet the doctor and know how much is the operation. She wants me to have surgery next week. I condition myself that I will have surgery next week but then I think again and decided to postpone my surgery as it is not so urgent and I can still try Visanne medication. I told my family everything is too overwhelming and stressful for me right now and I don't want to add to our problem. I will have surgery but not at this time of my life.