God! could I get any more depressed!

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First of all its one little thing, I think spring is the most depressing time of the year for me. I really feel like crashing in Spring Time. First off the neighbours are incarnate from the devil himself. Secondly no Nip Tuck, no Lost, No Sky. You think these are immaterial and pointleses talking about. Well yes they are when you think of all the suffering loss and death in the world. Thirdly a young mother and father are struggling to deal with the complications that their new baby has suffered and when I asked for support on another forum I ended up getting my post locked and told not to dwell on the negative but its as if all the odds are stacked against this little boy. I witnessed a child badly burned arrive in our Accident and Emergency department one November and they had to sedate her and later she died. I watched a child of a few months old crash, not breathing, no heart beat and I watched the team bring him back to life. I watched a child with a condition being left to scream in his cot because they thought it was a temper tantrum, when it was a terminal condition, they suddenly because attentive to his needs because they knew he was going to die. I have seen all this and yet when I asked for support I was denied that support. Is it any wonder I find myself leaving forums because people cannot understand its not negativity. Its not being miserable its caused by depression. Any way before the tears fall again, and before the psychoanalysts or the wanna be doctors on this site start analysing everything I have said and telling me I need professional help. I am going to close. I am getting professional help but just because you are recieving medication or counselling, you also need to talk out your feelings. That's what my counsellour told me to do, let your feelings out. Okay here go's one virtual scream SCRRRRRREAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMM.