its killing me...
By fabchic
@fabchic (130)
Philippines
March 9, 2007 7:37am CST
okay,here's the thing..i had a bf way back my teenage years,i broke up with him just because..so,he got hooked with our schoolmate in highschool,they had a kid and they're still living together as a couple.as for me, i married a jerk,had 4 children with him,still living together til now..just recently,my brother got terminated from his job so i decided to help him to look for another.i contacted a friend of mine who happens to be the sister of the girl my ex ended up with.she told me to contact my ex because he's the one who knows where my brother can apply.so,even if im hesitant to do so,i decided to call him..i dont know why suddenly i feel like i still have something for him..but,i felt that he was so cold talking to me and all and that he even had mistaken me for somebody else..now, i feel like i m hoping he'd call or text me..i shrug off this feeling and i hate it because my husband is overly possesive i can't even go out with my friends w/out him going with me..recently i find myself checking my mobile unusually often hoping to find a msg from him..i find myself thinking about him..i hate hoping coz i know it'll never be..but i find myself doing so every so often these past few days..its killing me...: (
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3 responses
@noeltotherescue (261)
• India
9 Mar 07
oh wow!! what a situation to be in!!! maybe you think you have feelings for your ex-boyfriend because you think your husband is a jerk!
well dear, there is nothing good that is gonna happen from this infactuation of yours!! after all,this guy is married still and so are you!
come to your senses!! if your husband is possessive of you then its because he loves you!
@fabchic (130)
• Philippines
10 Mar 07
hmm...i dont THINK my husband is a jerk..i KNOW he is! even before my ex and i crossed paths,my life with my husband is totally miserable..i can't leave him because he's giving me threats..he used to abuse me physically and i just thank God that he doesnt do that anymore.he does'nt care about our children..all he cares about is get drunk with he's friends til he puke! my in laws are the ones who take care of all the responsibilities that he should take as the head of the family..so i guess,you can't really love somebody like that..
@decimus785 (1419)
• Aruba
9 Mar 07
You still have some feelings for him,don't expect a call or message from him,you know he's happy with her woman and child,if they aren't married maybe soon they'll be.You have to stop thinking about him,you will only hurt yourself,i know your not happy with the jerk of your husband,i think you should resist him for another while.If your marriage isn't good,it doesn't mean that have to ruin others relationship.Just don't think about him anymore
@jolope (987)
• Philippines
9 Mar 07
i feel for you girl..
im in the same situation..the only difference is im not yet married and i dont have kids..
i dont actually know what to tell you or if i am in a good position to even give a decent advice..
all i know is that what you have now are the things that can make you happy..i've tried telling myself that and somehow it actually worked..
try to see your hubby in a different way..that possessiveness might come in handy someday..
the past was something good but the future is even better..
i hope you'll be ok soon..
