My Heart Is Heavy and I'm Sad To Have To Relate This To All My Friends...
By Darkwing
@Darkwing (21583)
September 30, 2007 8:03am CST
We've only known her a short while, but I love this lady... she kept a brave face on through tumultuous times... even made me laugh quite a lot but this morning, when I awoke, I found a PM from her, entitled SOS. This, about six hours after it was sent, and asking me in some way to let you all know...
Rozann (The Hairdresser) and the friend I introduced to you all, won't be around for some while, as she's been kicked out onto the street, presumably from midnight last night her time, with nowhere to go, no money, no car and no computer. I feel lost... I was asked not to reply to the message for obvious reasons and I think most of you will know what those reasons are... I just need to talk to her. Why didn't she take my phone number while there was still time, and call me "collect". I feel so helpless, and need to be there for her. She did attempt a post before she had to leave, but alas, had no time.
Roz has been to the dark side of life before... been lost herself, and now she's alone in the dark forest again. Were she in Britain, I could find her with little difficulty, but in the States, she is but an grain of sand in a vast country, and I have no idea where to start. Where she will roam now, I have absolutely no idea, and I know she's feeling pretty ragged at the moment, and would really love to come back to her roots. I feel so sad for her.
So, in an attempt to reach out my hand to her, I will be lighting a candle for Roz, today, and each day she's away, in the hope that the light will guide her on her path, help her to find herself again, and grant her the strength to find her way back to the place she loves. I'm not sure of the colour I'll use, as I'm torn between purple and brown, but perhaps I'll alternate the colours.
Passing this on is a very difficult thing for me to do, but as I said before, I love Roz and her being disconnected from my life just now, leaves a big empty space in my heart. I need to know that she's ok and not sleeping rough and putting herself at risk. She loves the ocean, and I fear for her... it's Fall, and turning cold... I can't tell you how painful this all is for me. September has not been the best month in my year, and I would ask you all again to maybe light a candle with me, and light Roz's way back to us? I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way... I didn't even have chance to say farewell, and my heart is heavy.
I'm rambling on a bit, I know, because I'm lost for words. She was walking a tightrope anyway, but now the tightrope has been taken away, and all I can think to do right now is call all our friends together in an attempt to send a bright light to light her way to happiness.... Sorry, I can't say any more. I'm upset and confused right now, so I'll just add a quote from Roz...
"To Be Lovely is So Easy, as Natural as Breathing...A Soft Smile of Graceful Peacefulness Radiates Around Me... Beware Your Happy Undoing, But N'er Fear The Red Rose of Love~ by the TheHairDresser:)"
Thank you for listening... again. x
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23 responses
@theprogamer (10534)
• United States
30 Sep 07
I didn't know it was like this. I thought, I thought it was something else.
I'll keep Roz in my thoughts, she really needs the help. I can't think of anything else to say.
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@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
I know, my friend... I'm a bit gobsmacked myself. I didn't know it was so close in coming although she did intimate a little while ago that she'd got a reprieve. I do so wish she'd said something when I was talking to her an hour or so earlier.
Brightest Blessings.
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@BayleighGray (4334)
• United States
30 Sep 07
Im so sorry to hear that Roz is in this situation. I really felt a connection with her as well!
She will be in my prayers that nothing bad will happen to her, Im thinking she is strong and resourceful and will do her best. Dont worry about her so much, think of positive things!
Hugs Bay xx
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@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
Thank you Bayleigh... you're right. Yes, I am trying to remain positive, but it's very difficult when I can't communicate with her in any way. I'm as lost as she is here.
However, I am keeping the faith, and have posted a message for her in my 360, in the hope that she'll manage to get online and see it. I was kind of hoping Balasari might be in here, because he and Roz had such an understanding of each other. Not to worry, I'm sure he'll be along at some point... until then, my candle is lit, in the hope that she'll find her way safely back to her friends and loved ones.
Brightest Blessings.
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@Lakota12 (42600)
• United States
30 Sep 07
OH noooooooooooooo Hopeing that she will get ahiold of you again . I have only had her as a friend for about a month but from that month I felt that there was a sweet soul there.
and as you say hard to find any one in the states if they dont wan to be found.
So wi;l; find a candle to light for her and hope she goes to a shelter or somethng and can find her way back to us /. hugs and blessings to both of you !
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@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
I had an alert to your comment on 360 Lakota and on looking, it doesn't appear where Roz can see it... you put an anonymous comment in, so only I can see it. Perhaps it's not a great idea to leave your number on there, sweetheart, but you could type the comment in the normal way, about the shelter, omitting the number and she would see that... also she should see on her profile, but who knows what will be done with her account now she's gone? I just hope she can get back in.
Thank you for your concern, my friend. You just concentrate now on getting better yourself... hear? xxx
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@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
I hope she gets back soon too, Lakota, and safely, because I fear for her. This came as a big shock to me because we were talking and laughing not more than about an hour prior to her sending me the message. Unfortunately, I'd just gone to bed, and didn't see it until I got up. She wanted to post a discussion, but was not given the time to do so, hence she PM'd me and asked me to let you all know. She sounded very down and almost as though she was being dragged from the computer.
I've left her a message on my 360 page if you'd like to read it, in the hope that she'll manage to get online sometime soon, and that it will help her. I know how she so yearns for her roots, but helpless to do much when I don't know where she is and can't contact her.
Anyhow, here's the link for my 360. You should be able to get in there, as I've altered the settings.
http://uk.blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-uS00svA8dKnigUWAD4qMH_FEr9c-;_ylt=AhXIOhgBMF7nl.GXoPSS971PFOJ3?cq=1
Brightest Blessing my friend... keep faith, and Roz will be back, I'm sure. Love and hugs. xxx
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@maddysmommy (16230)
• United States
30 Sep 07
I am so sorry to hear this Darkwing and I too will light a candle for your friend Roz. I have never met her on mylot and I pray and hope she is SAFE wherever she is. Hugs to You both!
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@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
Awwwwww, thank you so much Maddysmommy. I'm surprised you haven't met her here, but just the same I very much appreciate your prayers. Thank you also for the hugs... they always make me feel better too... give me a kind of warm feeling, which I'm sure is something Roz needs right now.
I just hope, as Lakota says, she has the sense to find some shelter. Being alone on the streets of the USA in the middle of a cold, dark night is daunting enough, and I'm very mindful of her love for the Ocean. She hid her despair very well, but I knew what she was going through and went along with her nervy yet jocular conversations. I'm in shock to be honest, but I am trying to keep faith that she will get back to us, somehow, soon, which I'm sure she will with our prayers and candles.
Brightest Blessings and thank you again, for everything. x
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
30 Sep 07
Oh this is terrible...she's replied to quite a number of my discussions and was witty and charming...I went to her page and noticed how she had had problems a few weeks ago, as her son's apartment was burnt down...and now this...Why was she kicked out? Was she having severe money problems? One could never guess she was going through all this though..
I tried to get to your 360 blog but couldn't..all I got was my page--do you have a better link?
Yes my prayers go out to her, and you too! My candles will be lit.
Do you think that is why you were up so late? I remember the discussions the two of us were involved in and you mentioned it was 4 in the morning where you were..did you perhaps sense something and was restless? Does she have any family that can take her in temporarily... I sure do hope so
Please keep us updated if you hear anything
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@Darkwing (21583)
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1 Oct 07
Yes, Pye, her son's apartment burned down about three weeks ago from what I can remember and she was unable to help him out. She was pretty upset about that.
As for why she was kicked out, I'm not sure, but she did go out there initially to be with a guy she met on the internet. Now, whether it was him who threw her out, I'm not too sure, or whether she was no longer with him, but I do know that it didn't work out. She's pining for her roots... longs to come back home... everything's gone wrong, but I didn't probe because she was trying to keep cheerful through it all. She needed people to talk to and she needed to keep it cheerful and laugh, so I introduced her in here, in order that she'd never be short of a friendly chat.
I can't really imagine that a landlord would throw her out in the middle of the night. I got this PM from her soon after I'd gone to bed and didn't find it until I got up... she sent it to me at around 6.45a.m. my time, and I'm not sure whether Massachusetts is 5 or 6 hours behind but at earliest is was a quarter to one in the morning. Now, would a landlord put her out at that time... would he be entitled? Not here, my friend. I think it was her man. Oh, she didn't love him any more. He seemed to keep her prisoner there, so to speak... sounded like possessiveness.
She was thrown out with no car, no money, nowhere to go, and I fear for her safety.
That's strange about the 360 link... all the others got there and I'm not sure what else to offer you. I'll try to send you an invite in the normal way, always assuming you use the same name everywhere. Before I try to invite you, try asking for my Yahoo Profile, Moonchild031.
It could be I sensed something was wrong, but I certainly didn't realise how fast the time was going because I was so involved in discussions. I didn't go to bed until after six, and her message came at around six forty-five... if I sensed something, that was odd, but then I was very tired by that time.
As for family, I have no idea what happened with her son, only that she couldn't afford to help him in any way. Her mother is out there too but I don't know how close and whether she has room to take her in. I don't even know how they get on. I just wish she would find a way of getting in touch, because I'm very concerned about her safety.
Thank you for the candles. I appreciate that very much. Brightest Blessings.
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@Darkwing (21583)
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1 Oct 07
I don't know much about the guy but I know there have been problems there for a long time and she wanted to come home. I can't blame her for that, but as you say, it's a really mean thing to do.
I haven't seen an alert for 360 or anything. I'll pop in and have a look in a tick. I'm late for bed again, lol... being trying to catch up with Pogo, and I doubt I've made payout on here this month.
Thank you for your prayers, Pye. All of us together should be able to pull her through, and let's hope we hear something very soon. The note she sent sounded quite terse, as though he was hounding her out, and so did her quick little discussion I thought.
Oh well... there's not a lot we can do at the moment but burn our candles and think her back. Brightest Blessings, my dear friend. Take care. x
@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
1 Oct 07
You're right it definitely then sounds like her boyfriend threw her out, but just to throw her out without being able to take anything,...what kind of heartless bas**rd could anyone be no matter what the situation?
Oh I did find your link and I did a friend request for you...I didn't even know about Yahoo 360!
Yes have my candles burning for her now and my prayers
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@3lilangels (4639)
• United States
30 Sep 07
omg my friend,i am so speechless and so saddened by this horrible news.i loved her very dearly and actually became very close to her and we talked quite a few times from emails too.i knew she was going thrugh some very hard times and i pray nothing happens to her.i am just so upset by this i really dont know what more to say.while writing this i have tears coming out of my eyes and i really cant write anymore.my prayers are so with her and i will lite a candle for her and pray as hard as i can.so sorry for you too my friend.this is so devastating.xoxoxo.pattie
@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
Pattie... I know how you feel... I love this lady so much. I don't know whether you can get in, but I've written a message to her in my 360 page. I'll open it to the public and perhaps you'd like to visit and listen to the words I sent her on the wind... It'll make you cry, but hey! This is a real friend, and we can afford her a few tears. I'm so afraid of her love for the Ocean, I can't tell you. Anyway, please pay a visit to my 360...
http://uk.blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-uS00svA8dKnigUWAD4qMH_FEr9c-?cq=1
Thank you for your prayers and candles. Together, we will guide her to safety, my dear friend.
Brightest Blessings. x
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@3lilangels (4639)
• United States
30 Sep 07
i just saw the link,thanks my friend.i pm you but thats what i was asking about.thank you.
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@lingli_78 (12822)
• Australia
1 Oct 07
i don't really know her... but i really feel for her and i've take a look at her profile... i will pray for her so that God will protect her and she will be safe... hopefully she will read this post and come back to us... please update us on her news...
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@Darkwing (21583)
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1 Oct 07
I hope she gets to access the internet somehow too, Lingli. I'm so concerned for her safety. I've also put a message on my 360 page which I hope she might see, even before she gets here because it might just give her a bit of strength.
If you want to read it... feel free... I've opened it to public view so anybody can go in who wishes to. The link is...
http://uk.blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-uS00svA8dKnigUWAD4qMH_FEr9c-?cq=1
Thank you for your prayers... the more, the stronger and the candles will light her way for her as well as sending her strength and special powers. I'm keeping faith, but I just have this little apprehensive feeling about all this.
Brightest Blessings.
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
30 Sep 07
Oh no I just can't believe this happening
I replied to her Discussion yesterday but I could not understand what was going on
I will ring you when I get home
My Thoughts hope and love are with her and like you I really hope she is ok
I am not to sure what is going on but I will ring you when I get back home in the meantime I really hope she is ok
Hugs xxx
@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
Gabs, you know your way to my 360 page. Please take time to look at the message I put in there for Roz. I don't know when she'll see it but I hope it's soon.
I was speaking to her but an hour before she sent that message and although I know she's been having problems, she gave no hint as to the fact that this was going to happen. We laughed, in fact, quite a lot. I'm in shock with the news, and I'm fearful of her love for the Ocean. Not only is it beginning to get cold now, she's lost and alone, and I feel so helpless.
You take care, Sweetheart. This month has not been a good one for me, this being the third crap deal I've been dealt. Still, it's October tomorrow and must be a better month for me. Love and hugs. xxxx
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@GardenGerty (161080)
• United States
30 Sep 07
Do you have no clue where in the States Roz is? There are lots of social service programs that might help her out. I will say a prayer for her, and join you in your positive thoughts and well wishes.
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@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
All I know is that she WAS in New England. Now, that's a big State, my friend. I hope she will have the nous to find a shelter for today and visit a social service office tomorrow, but who knows? She hardly gave me a clue to where she would go or what she would do because she was being hustled out of the apartment and off the computer. There was hardly time to say "goodbye" or "farewell", let alone anything else.
Thank you for adding your prayer... I just hope she looks in soon and lets us know she's ok. I miss her so and I'm worried about her.
Brightest Blessings, my friend, and thank you for caring. x
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@AmbiePam (94369)
• United States
1 Oct 07
I just feel so devastated by this. I can't imagine how she feels! She's such a sweetheart, and I just wish she had let us know. I have no money, hardly any for myself, but I would have made call after call to make things happen for her. If you hear from her again, please let us know. She's the sweetest thing to ever come to MyLot, and I will pray for her now and often.
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@Darkwing (21583)
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1 Oct 07
Yes, me too, Pam. I also can't imagine how she feels being thrown out in the middle of the night, which I estimate to be either a quarter to twelve or a quarter to one in the morning... pitch black, no money and no car, just wandering with nowhere to go. How mean is that, and such a lovely person, as you say.
I hope she's found a shelter or something. I just feel so helpless right now, and my heart is saddened. Thank you for your prayers. I've left her a message on my 360 page which I hope will give her the strength and resolve to make it out there. If you wish to read it, and listen to the music, feel free. She IS loved, and by many people. I just wanted her to know that, and am hoping she can find some place to get online and read it. The link is
http://uk.blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-uS00svA8dKnigUWAD4qMH_FEr9c-;_ylt=AhXIOhgBMF7nl.GXoPSS9708FOJ3?cq=1
Brightest Blessings and thank you for your support from both Roz and I. x
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@lucky_witch (2707)
• Philippines
30 Sep 07
I dont know the woman you are referring to but I really feel the sadness in your words. You know what, she is very lucky to have someone like you as a friend. Life is a big battle field...and we all have trials to face. We must struggle to win and survive...along the way it is always good to know that there would be someone who will care for us... stop for a while and cheer us when we need someone to believe in us... Its never easy finding that person... but she is really lucky to have you.
I know in her heart she feels all your fears, I know that she feels your worries and fear for her... I just hope she would find ways to let you know how life is going on for her at the moment.
If she has no home to stay right now, no money, then life would surely be tough for her. But I know somehow she will find ways to survive. Just keep on praying for her...and you know you're not alone with this. I would also include her into my prayers. Its good to know that in sites like this... you would find those people you would treasure for your whole life.
I dont know if what I am saying makes sense... but I hope it would help at least. Keep in touch with the Lord... HE will surely hear you out.
@PurpleTeddyBear (6685)
• Canada
1 Oct 07
Oh Hunnie I am so sorry that this has happened. I can understand you being worried. I have only known her for a short time, but enjoyed her discussions, comments, etc. I too hope that she is okay and can get a message to you somehow soon.
Love & Hugzz Sweet, Your Friend, PurpleTeddyBear ;)
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@Darkwing (21583)
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1 Oct 07
Thank you Purple. She and I both knew it was coming, as she said she had a reprieve for the moment, a little while ago, but he sure chose his timing, didn't he? The middle of the night, nowhere to go, no money and no car. Is that mean, or is that MEAN?
I hope she gets in touch soon... I can't keep from a tear or three every time I think of her wandering the streets, alone. Still, she's a resourceful and cheerful type, even through the bad times, so perhaps I'm underestimating her a little... I do hope so.
Brightest Blessings, love and hugs.
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@PurpleTeddyBear (6685)
• Canada
1 Oct 07
I agree that putting someone out on the street with no money, no car, and nowhere to go is very MEAN! I am happy to hear that she is okay, and that she has been in touch!
Love & Hugzz, Your Friend, PurpleTeddyBear ;)
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@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
Thank you so much, Why. I knew I could count on you, somehow, and others like you who have known Roz but a short while, but hold her in your heart.
Please feel free to visit this link, my 360 page, also, where I have left a message for Roz if she manages to get online. I miss her so, already and I am, not to put too finer point on it... scared for her.
Brightest Blessings to you my dear friend. Here is the link. Take care. x
http://uk.blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-uS00svA8dKnigUWAD4qMH_FEr9c-;_ylt=AhXIOhgBMF7nl.GXoPSS971PFOJ3?cq=1
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@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
Oh, I didn't know you hadn't befriended her, Why. In fact, I haven't seen you around in quite a while. Have you been keeping ok?
I appreciate your prayers whether you know Roz or not, but then what else would I expect from someone as nice as you. You take care, my friend and have a great day!
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@whyaskq (7523)
• Singapore
30 Sep 07
To be frank, I don't know her and I have not been active in mylot recently. I just feel the sadness of the post and so join in the prayers. Afterall, she is still part of the society we all live in and we should be grateful she is surviving. God bless.
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@ldybgsgma99 (798)
• United States
30 Sep 07
Unfortunately, I do not know this person but I will most definitely keep her in my prayers and pray for her safety and ability to come back. Please keep us informed if you hear anything else.
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@Darkwing (21583)
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30 Sep 07
This is the precious lady of whom I speak, my friend. She has been going through some really rough times for a while now, and the crunch has come. She is on the streets, no home to go to, no money and no car, and we have lost touch with her. She loves the Ocean, and I'm fearful of that fact, in the state of mind she must be in.
Thank you for your prayers... you don't know how much they are appreciated, and I will certainly keep you informed of any news. Brightest Blessings.
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@balasri (26537)
• India
1 Oct 07
I don't know what to say.She has been on of my close friends here.She never failed to respond to me and neither did I to her.She is a tender loving soul.I just cannot bear whatever is happening to her.Count me as the first person in lighting a candle for that wonderful person.Please let me know any news about her.
@Darkwing (21583)
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1 Oct 07
Sorry, Balasri... just after I let you know about this, up popped a discussion from Roz. She's back, safe and sound... the only problem is, she's back in the same place, so perhaps we will still keep the candles going to help her find her way out. Oh, I know she will cope, but the situation is not a good one.
However, I'm overjoyed with the news that she's back, and safe and sound! That's all that matters for the time being, huh?
Brightest Blessings on you, my friend.
@rogue13xmen13 (14402)
• United States
1 Oct 07
Hope you find her and save her. She needs your help.
@Darkwing (21583)
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1 Oct 07
Yes, I know that... I recognised the cry for help, but why didn't she tell me when she was talking to me an hour previous to having to leave. I maybe could have kept in contact by phone or something, then. As it is, I don't know where to start looking for her, my friend.
Brightest Blessings.
@TerryZ (22076)
• United States
1 Oct 07
Oh Darkwing I feel so bad too. I know your heart is heavy now and if it wasnt you would be no kind of a friend. I can really relate to your friend. Just a couple of months ago my husband and I almost were in that situation. But thankfully I found a cute little house that we are now renting. And let me tell you its really small. My husband was out of work and now he is back. But enought of me Im going to be praying for your friend. And please be positive and let us know the minute you find something out. Please dont be sad. Hugs to you!
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@Darkwing (21583)
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1 Oct 07
Terry... look above your comment! She's BACK!!! Ok, she's gone back to the same situation, but she knows what she's doing and can be a tough little cookie when she needs to be. I'm just happy to tell you she's back.
As for your situation, it matters not the size of the home, it's the hearts that entwine within, and I'm glad to hear that you made it through too. Good luck for the future... I'm sure that having conquered that obstacle, life will be great for you both now.
Thank you for your prayers and hugs. I appreciate them so much, but I'm sad no more! Rozann is BACK! Woohoo!!!
Brightest Blessings, my friend. xx
@lifeiseasy (2292)
• United States
1 Oct 07
You are such a dear friend ...I am very saddened as well and I don;t know your friend ... hopefully all will turn out alright for her and you will soon hear from her. I know you are very troubled at not being able to connect with her... keep the candle burning and soon you will hear from her :) I have sent an angel to watch over her for you :)
@Darkwing (21583)
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1 Oct 07
Awwwwwww, what a lovely touch Life. And hi!!! Haven't seen you for a while. How you been?
Roz is back now, thank goodness. She's safe and sound but back in the old situation, so my candle is still burning in the hope she can find her way out of there.
Brightest Blessings and great to see you, Terry. x
@mummymo (23706)
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1 Oct 07
Oh no sweety I am so sorry to hear this sad news! I had only just met this lovely lady and hadn't really got to know her yet although I have heard a lot about her! It is horrible to hear she has been left in such dire circumstances and of course I will join you in lighting a candle - I will also pray for her that she will find herself, stay safe and be happy! Please let us know if you hear anyhthing from her , won't you! xxx
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@juashing07 (32)
• Philippines
1 Oct 07
How sad... I'm with you. If only I can help but I'm here in the Philippines with so little resources. The best I can do, however, is include her in my prayers.
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