Yesterday morning I was so depressed I couldn't function
By TriciaW
@TriciaW (2441)
United States
April 17, 2008 5:19am CST
I could not pull myself together yesterday morning and this is very rare for me. I even went back to bed and just cried. I think it was everything piling up on me that did it that and SO ranting about money and paying bills. I can usually blow off everything he says but not yesterday. The words cut deep and I just couldn't move. He did call me from work later in the day to see if I was ok and said he was sorry. I told him he had no clue how I felt about anything and if he thought his ranting helped he was dead wrong that it only pulled me away from him and everything else. I was very blunt about everything I had been holding in. An hour after that I was feeling better but it scared me that I got so down and depressed. I am serious I could not even get up and do anything. I am feeling a little down this morning but I got up and decided to post here to maybe help lift my spirits a bit. Sure glad I have all of you to vent to.
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@kiran1978 (4134)
• Australia
17 Apr 08
I hope you are feeling alot better today. It is good to vent and not supress your emotions. Do you usually get that really depressed? Or was this a one off? If you do find yourself being low all the time, I know St Johns Wart, natural tablets can help with depression or liquid minerals. Take care.
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@lillybee (11)
• Slovak Republic
17 Apr 08
Hi Tricia,
I feel for you. The worst thing about being depressed is that it hurts and destroys us the most. To get out of the anger-blame-guilt cycle, you should see a therapist or if you can't afford it, go and see your doctor and get some Omega 3 fish tablets. Say to yourself: I refuse to suffer! Until you get your negative thoughts in order, you cannot think logically and makes changes in your life.
I've been through it - four years in a relationship that was wrong for me. Hope I've helped in any way. Looking forward to hearing from you. x Lilly
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@mbs730 (2147)
• Canada
18 Apr 08
I am so sorry that this happened. I have been so depressed at times to the point I just couldn't get out of bed. I am glad he apologized but still, he had no clue how much he had upset you. And vent all you need, venting is good for the soul. I really hope things improve for you soon.
@recycledgoth (9894)
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17 Apr 08
This is the place to come and vent hun, we've all been there and understand. I get very depressed when I see the bills piling up and knowing that my partner and I simply don't earn enough. I am guilty of holding everything inside until I reach a point that I break down. Sometimes you just have to let it all out and talk.
I hope you are feeling better now hun
@CatsandDogs (13963)
• United States
19 Apr 08
Vent all you want Tricia, that's one of the many reasons we're here for. Friends are here to help one another in one way or another so do what you have to do to make yourself feel better. I wish someone could make me feel better too but no one can. I have lupus and I did too much yesterday in the way of spring cleaning and I'm still hurting the next evening. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get to feeling better and maybe even finish this cleaning that I started. Hope you feel better too.
@julyteen (13252)
• Davao, Philippines
19 Apr 08
Sad to know that my friend. I understand you feeling. Keep it up never mind what happening earlier. Don't bother yourself as the moment. Relax your mind. Concentrate positive things than the negative one's because it will only add you feelings. we are here your friend in mylot willing comfort you with our post.
have a bless day and happy weekend.
@Darkwing (21583)
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17 Apr 08
I'm sorry you were feeling so down yesterday... here's a (((Huggg))) to help you feel better. I guess your S/O didn't realise how depressed you were getting when he phoned you about the bills. At least he found the strength to apologise when he realised he'd hurt you.
Crying is good when you get really down. It releases some of the tension, and if the weather's ok, a walk outside, in the countryside if you can, would do you the world of good. I find it very calming to be at one with Nature at times such as you are experiencing. Pamper you soul a bit, my friend, and you might find a positive solution to a lot of things.
Brightest Blessings, and take care.
@highflyingxangel (9225)
• United States
17 Apr 08
Sometimes though crying and taking time off for yourself is a good thing. It's certainly a lot better than bottling everything up and holding it in. At least the SO called you to apologise. Sometimes people just get frustrated and tired of things and say a lot of things they don't mean but they feel need to be said regardless. It happens sometimes.
@kevsgirlalways (5883)
• Malaysia
17 Apr 08
hey so sorry to hear that you're feeling down. i'm not feeling too good myself. wish this feeling would just go away- it's driving me nuts!! anyway hope that you'll be able to do something that you enjoy to get your mind off things a bit. and maybe patch things up with him or something, so that you'd feel much better. hope you'll be able to work something out. take care and hope you're feeling better ya! 
@mrsjbelle (1640)
• United States
18 Apr 08
Ahhhh, Hang in there hon. He probably didnt mean it. I've been there many, many times its not easy.
@TShaheed (80)
• United States
18 Apr 08
I think that alot of people have felt this way at least once in their life. I remember once I had to leave work early because I felt so down and could hardly stopp crying. It happens. I found that getting out of the house and soaking up some sun helps. Also,working out heled me feel better. I'm not sure if this would work for everyone...but it's worth a try. I hope you feel better :-)
@jenni7202 (1598)
• United States
17 Apr 08
I know how you feel. I have the same problems with money and bills, and everytime I think I'm getting a head, I'm really not. My boyfriend and I are always fighting about it, and it's really the reason why I started here at MyLot, to try to earn some extra cash to help with bills. So far, Mylot has helped just a teensy tiny bit, but it's better than nothing. I've only gotten around $15 from being here so far, but that was enough to pay one of my credit card bills for the month.
I hope that you are feeling better, and just know, that as long as you are working hard each and every day to try to fix your financial problems, then you are doing nothing wrong!
@hani15 (6)
• Trinidad And Tobago
17 Apr 08
we all have days like that but you need to take care not to have your emotions build up too much and affect you physically. I had to learn to be more carefree and not let people bother me , still learning . if we do not take care of ourself and stop worrying about what other people think we will all go mad LOL. Feel better soon
@paid2write (5201)
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17 Apr 08
Sometimes it can help to shed a few tears and I hope you do feel better now. It must be difficult when someone is going on at you like that but he did call and say he was sorry.
It's good that you were able to tell him that his ranting will not change the situation. I hope he understands this and that you can talk to each other when you are both calm and try to discuss things.
I'm glad you could get up today and hope that coming to myLot and writing about your feelings will help you.
