Me being a Mother

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I have been inspired with this Discussion by my lovely Friend Mooch because she did a wonderful Tribute to me, which surprised me and brought Tears to my Eyes because of the Love I receive from my Friends on here She wrote about me a Tribute as an Example of a wonderful Mother To me being a Mother is a job for Life, my Children, Boy and Girl Adults are my everything, I was told I could not have Children due to being raped at the age of 5 for 2 years, I was told this when I was 17 and had been rushed into Hospital with severe Pains, it was my Ovaries, they are badly damaged Anyway I fell Pregnant with my Boy at the Age old 22 when the Ex Husband and I decided to try, I had a Miscarriage before my Son , the first 6 Months where great in the pregnancy, then the Problem started and I had a job keeping hold of my Baby, but with a lot of Problems and Pains I did it, I swore that I would care and look out for him for the rest of my Love, I swore this to him as I looked into his little Face 2 Years later I fell pregnant with my Daughter, from Day 1 there was Problems, again I held on, when she was born, she was not breathing and I thought I had lost her but after half an hour they managed to get her back, again I held her in my Arms and swore the same, I was told then my Daughter was high risk of Cot Death, I was up with her just sitting with her most Nights and Days, I would get up after 2-3 hours sleep panicking in case she had gone, she was a sick Baby for the first 6 Months, then she blossomed She was 9 Months old when I was forced to get a Part time Job, Ex Husband liked his Social Life, I needed Money to feed my Kids and dress them, My Son was at Play School and my close Friend kept my Daughter, I would come home and the rest of the time was with my Kids I worked all the way through my Children growing up but once I was home my time was theirs, there where times they followed me round while I was cleaning and that lol, which I loved and we would talk My Daughter used to follow me every where I had to watch that I did not trip over her lol, if I went to the Toilet she would sit outside the door and wait for me Now they are Adults and we are still close even though I have moved 3 hours away to the South, due to a few Reasons, again, we sat down and talked about it before I took the step, my Children have been and still are here for me since I have been diagnosed with my Sickness and reduced to Disability, forced to stop working, I loved working, all of a sudden I was home and my Children where going to work, School. I felt lost useless, my Children saw me through it, they did not turn their back on me, they where there for me. But then they started to live their Life round me and it was not fair on them, if one went out, the other one would not go on a Night out, no matter what I said and that I would be ok they still would not listen lol My Children are my World, they are the Children I was told I would never have and to this Day I thank God for giving them to me, that they have grown into 2 wonderful, responsible Adults As most of you know 4 weeks ago I could have lost my Son due to being left lying bleeding badly, I didn't and again I am so grateful I used to starve when there was not enough Food, I will starve now while I am helping my Son and for as long as I am here, I will be there for my Kids and help them, no matter what Children are very valuable People and need to be guided the right way working Mum or not, tired or not, always be there for them even when they are Adults Again Thank you to all my lovely Friends here who are always here to support me and who love me I love you all to and you all do not realise how much it means to me Sorry it is so long