Goodbye for now

gabs-this is truly beautiful..but I have to admit you're scaring me here as this sounds too damn sad. I can understand though where you are coming from. I often put on a "brave" front...people seem to think I'm so strong...as one friend of mine has said "You're a very strong person, you just have to have more faith in yourself" And that's the crux of the matter...Yes, I inwardly know I'm strong and that I've had a lot of triumphs in my life even in adversity, but I sometimes or should I say often feel very vulnerable, weak, not at all strong. I don't often let on to many how often I have a lot of physical pain, more than even I want to admit to myself and feel frustrated. I have often posted very positive, uplifting discussions here that are on line with the law of attraction concept, positive thinking concepts, and yes, oh yes I DO believe in them...but I still have my doubts...my fears..wondering if the future I yearn for will come to pass as I've dreamed. Hugs to you my friend and I really love you

I hope this is not a description of how YOU feel. If so you really need help it sounds as if you are not just in a "blue funk" but are severely depressed. GET HELP!

Take care Gabs. I live with a person like this and getting back can be hard. Absorb the love around you and do the things you feel are right. You've dealt with so many things and are strong enough to come through again with the help of those who love you.

this is sad and she shouldnt be going nywhere. as she can work thru it more by staying around hugs

Nice poem. It is rather dark and I hope you are not feeling this blue! Take care my friend!

Oh Gabs!!!! Please I do hope you are O.K!!!! I am so very concerned about you and to me this does not sound good!!! My phone is fixed now if you want to call me and hopefully I'll be home but not this week-end it is very busy!!! Love you very much and please hang in there! Get help if you need it! HUGS ~Heavens~

Gabs I respect you too much to respect your need for solitude. Last time something like this happened, I went screaming and wanting you back….however, this time I feel its too deep, too personal, too emotional and you want to be just with yourself for sometime. Whatever it is my friend, we are always here waiting for you. (And if this isn’t about you, heaven save you from my wrath…)

Oh Gaby, This is so sad that a person so full of life and love can be so down. You are a spark of light in my day and I love you so much. I hope you cheer up and I know that Gissi is there for you. You are loved more then you can imagine and I am sure that most of your true friends will stand by your side. I also want to tell you that what you have written her has a beautiful side to it. It sounds like it could be a ballad and a wonderful but sad song. Mark and Lori

I am certainly very sad to find this here today, gabs. I had no idea that you're feeling this way right now, and I'm at a loss as to how to help you. Please make sure that you stay connected to your man, and your family and friends, no matter what. I know that Gissi loves you as much as is possible, for a little guy like him. You have so many genuine, caring friends here, including me, and you are one of the strongest, most helpful, compassionate people on here. I know this will never change. If you must take a little break, to get back to your old self, I do understand, and you will be sorely missed. I'm sending you my love and prayers, as well as a big hug to you.

Parts of your poem makes me think my mum might be feeling like this. I'm not sure how to feel by reading it but it seems really depressing. How do you reach out to someone who feels like this?

I don't know what happened Gabs, but I hope you get through it all. Take whatever time you need and deal with what you have to. It's good you've started to deal with this in your own ways. Don't forget though, you've still got support on here enough though you feel the need to part for now. Wishing you and Gissi the best. ~Pro.

Oh sweet Gabs, I would give my eyeteeth to hold you and comfort you and brush the pain from your heart. Time and distance make that impossible. But know, understand, believe - that you are in my heart, my thoughts, my prayers And I will be waiting for the she that is to return.................... Love you.

hi gabs this is a year later and I hope a lot of things are better for you now. You have Gissi, and lots of friends here and a man you love I hope. You made a very elegant and eloquent poem but a heartbreaking one too as I cou ld feel your pain. I am sitting here tonight with my left arm killing me, and am not sure why unless my arthritis has decided to take up habitat in my bionic shoulder with its metal and plastic shoulder joint. I have been taking ibuprofen and its moderated it quite a bit but it still hurts. But thats just physical pain it can be stopped for sure. well just hope you are a lot happier now. hugs to you and Gissi too.

Wow - did you write this? Very, very beautiful...

Dearest gabs, Sorry to hear you're feeling this way. "She" is giving you a lot of trouble, but the good thing is that you're getting on with your book. As you commented here, if you don't keep going, all the work would have been for nothing. Once it's finished you will feel so proud of yourself, with good reason. And "She" might turn up a little less on your doorstep. I'm glad you're with someone who stands by your side, no matter what. He might not be able to solve your problems, but you know you can count on him. That's so very important. And you've good a lot of friends here including me. Whenever you need to talk, contact me. Anytime, REALLY. XXX Dana

gabs that is so bitter sweet, it is about you, I hope you do come back and come back stronger than ever before.

One of my favorite sayings is.... When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. Your friends will be more than willing to help you hold on if you need us. I have a feeling you will come out of this a much stronger person. I love ya Gabs. Big hugs coming your way.

That's beautiful, and also very sad. I hope you really do fight, and come out, because I'm really worried about how you're feeling. I understand it though, when people ask how you're feeling, and you just say "fine" because you don't want to burden them with the truth that you're actually very sad and worried on the inside. I find that my "little companion true loyal" is always there to listen, and will never judge you, and they don't mind having a few tears on their fur either. I wish you all the best, and hope you're not feeling this way for too long.

Gabs, It sounds to me that you have so much to be happy about in your life..I think depression might have something to do with how you feel, I know this since I suffered with a pretty bad case starting in 2006, I won't go into details of how I endeed up that way, but I will say my life as I known it at that time ended and almost destroyed me...Some people don't realize that they have so much to be grateful for, and you sound like you are not alone even if you can not realize this. My past believe me when I say is something I would never want to relive and certain things that have happened to cause my depression still to this day appear almost daily in my thoughts.. I can say that the one thing that kept me from not giving in to dark thoughts were my children and how it would affect them..I am still struggling to find happiness and what I see in your poem is someone who is aware of the good people in her life and has to find a way to deal with whatever is causing the pain..It is not easy but I think everyday about how much I want to be free of my past and finding peace and happiness and enjoy life..I will say one more thing..right now my sister is at the hospital watching her husband of 25 years dying of cancer..he will be gone at any moment...you think you are alone..That is being alone..I think of this now when I think I have it so bad...

Godbye for now ? Try listening to P.O.D, there is a song called "Goodbye for now" =)