my boyfriend just died...

Do you believe in the resurrection???

Anne, I can't imagine the hole this has ripped in your heart. My sympathy and thoughts go out to you. Even though we are strangers here, there are many here who will listen and not judge if you need to get feelings off your chest. But I am worried about you. It bothers me that you think you deserve to be hurt or don't deserve to be happy. Everyone deserves to be safe and happy. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you find true happiness soon. Big hugs.

My sincere condolences on the loss of your boyfriend. It must be very hard to overcome all the regrets, pain and sadness but I believe time will eventually heals your sorrows. Just give yourself some time to mourn, and then try to move on. I once lost a father to an accident 4 years ago. It was very challenging at first to accept that he's no longer around, but as time goes by, it doesn't hurt that much anymore. Whatever it is, don't blame yourself for all the tragedies that happen in your life. There must be a reason behind every bad thing that happen in our life.

Grieve if you must, as long as it take let the tears run freely. It is good that you have an outlet of talking here even with strangers. Moving on is not that easy a process. All of us have to go through things that causes us to be depress and we have different ways of dealing with healing from such pain. Trust God. People close to you mean well but it is really up to you to allow yourself to move through the phases of grieving. I have undergone such similar lost so I know this from a personal experience.

I don't know how to respond to this because I honestly cannot relate. This must be such a difficult time for you. I cannot even imagine. All I want you to know is that my PM box is open ANYTIME you need to talk. I will be here for you. And I will be praying for you!

I thought i had a rough time broken up by my bf, but yours is tragic. Its normal to be sad since you are grieving. You should give time to accept your loss. You should get in touch with people who experienced it. they can help you cope up. Im so sorry to hear about this. Hope you'll get better.

I am sorry for your loss. You cannot hold it all bottled up inside. You have to talk with someone. I do not think you are being punished. The way things ended was rough, but you have to stop dwelling on that and concentrate on the good times and good memories you have. He would not want you to be dwelling on things like this. Hopefully you will be able to find some peace and be at peace with yourself. This is a nice place to vent.

Your story is so sad. I don't how to comfort you now, its good that you expressed what you feel, just feel free to express everything. I really don't know what to say but I think these are challenges in your life, you should be tough to pass all of this and in the end you will achieve the fruitful life you are waiting to have.

i'm surprised with those different and opposite reactions, good and bad, inspiring and not. well, i wanna say, it's about fate. your bf must be his time to go. that is what i want to believe as the biggest issue why you lost him.what makes you sad is of thinking the other issues about "i should have..." and "if only i..." you don't have to shop a lot of men to date. it's about seeking your own happiness. you won't find it from anyone i guess. it has to come from you. just decide. there should be nothing to worry you. you have your kids with you to start with.

I'm so sorry, how sad. All i can tell u is that time will help ease your pain. Just take one day at the time, enjoy your daughter & try to stay busy & not dwell on this all the time. Good luck to u & your daughter.

I am sorry to know about it, my friend. I hope and wish that you recover from that incident. I do believe that incident will makes you strong sooner or later you can find another good man in your life which heal the wound...

It's never been easy accept such cruel fact even for the strongest person.I'm not a good comforter to people especially for this sad thing but,I just want to tell you some of my feelings and i hope you could find your way to relieve from my feelings,okay? I understand it's so hard for you to forget about what happened about your boyfriend,and maybe no one or nothing could real take your sadness away at the moment,you even feel so guilty about your boyfriend but,if you really cannot accept this fact just think in this way,he is still alive at least in your heart,if you truly love him so much and he loves you so much too,then of course he never want to see you are being so sad for him,he still watchs over you in another beautiful place,when you feel so hard to get through then try to connect with him in your special ways,such as talk with him during your dreams,and do something good to yourself that he expected before,and take good care of yourself and try to make your life back to normal as he liked before...I don't know if this truly helpful but i think you need to try any means to get rid of sad emotions,anyways,things always has its reasons to happen,and as humans we don't have magic power or supernatural energy to change what happened,we only accept what cannot changed,of course as humans we have all kinds of emotions and feelings especially met tough times like this,but you need to do something to help you get through and also make your boyfriend feel comfortable in another place,you know? As long as you still love him,then he will always live in your heart,and you won't feel lonely because he always stay with you,watch over you and feel you,you know? Try to be strong,i think you can make it!

I really sorry to hear this Anne. Its must really difficult time for you. I don't what to say because I never really in your situation but I know from your story its really painful. All I can say please don't blame your self to much no one can predict life or when and how someone will die. Keep strong my friend because you had your reason to life, your daughters. Maybe every thing seem dark right now but be positive because we never know what will happen in the future or whats God plan over our life.

Please accept My condolence, if its a true inccident. I feel very sorry for you dear.May god gives you all the Strength to bear this situation, God Bless you

He was passed away...It is a reality and nothing can change it anymore. You must accept the fact that he was leaving on his life process, the final process: dealth, in which anyone of us will encounter it one day. It is unnecessary to be so sad about this. You still have to go on your life.

i can't help the tears falling down my cheeks as i read your post Anne, and i am sincerely sorry for your loss. regrets can be quite an enemy, you know and it's whats tearing you apart, keeping you up even in the wee hours of the morning. The so many IF ONLY, haunting you even when you're awake, that's quite a load to carry. It is good for you to feel the pain and the regret for now, but I hope you would soon get over it, for it would definitely do you no good in the long run. If it would be a consolation to you, why not try to talk to him through prayer and let out everything that you had meant to tell him had he lived? i know you have lots of things to say to him and it's whats making your world and load so heavy. plove goes beyond the physical and this may mean cheesy to you, but you can continue to love him in your mind and heart, as long as you want, just don't let it become a barrier to your personal life. It's good that you are able to express yourself, even with us whom you don't know. that is a good thing for you to do. Keeping it all up inside, bottling all the pain, the misery and the regret, may lead you to a state where you don't really want to be, considering you have a daughter. Don't lose hope Anne. I had love and lost too, many times, but i am still up and fighting. I keep up my faith and hope, that someday, someone who will love me as much as i love him, will stay for good, for the rest of our lifetime, with me. Thrice i had loved so deeply and thought i will never love another, but when i lost them, for one reason or another, life brought me unexpected gifts which brightened my life once more. Losing someone we love so much is a very very painful experience but it does not mean, our life will end with that. it does not mean that we will never find another equally worthy to love, for we can. Don't lose hope, if not for yourself, do it for your kid. when you experience losing someone you love, don't ever think it's about you, for usually it's not about you. It's about life, and it has nothing to do with what or who you are.