I feel so down
By bonnie
@bunnybon7 (50973)
Holiday, Florida
April 15, 2022 3:26pm CST
So tomorrow is Easter and I will be having the same old day I usually have.
Today is my youngest child's birthday. He is 42 yrs. I am trying to load a photo of one of the best birthdays we had for him. He was six and we had it in a park where our mobile home was parked. We lined up several picnic tables because most everyone living there was coming, did come in fact.
He lives far away,so I had to go to Facebook to wish him a happy birthday. He has no minutes on his phone.
We have been so broke and so when daughter got paid this morning,I was cheered up for a couple minutes. But what with a couple bills she had to pay and her going now to buy a few groceries and some candy for her niece, we will probably be right back struggling to survive till I get paid on the 17 th. Yay ! 2 more days.
Last night She had to go to the emergency room and get checked. For the past 3 days she has had chest pains and her heart races at times. I had to fuss at her to go. Also, bad part about it too is that if she goes to hospital for any period of time, I am left with Clay to do for me and he has been saying his back is killing him and bent over walking now too.
Right now they have been gone for 2 hours already shopping because she was too dizzy to drive herself. I'm just hoping she is okay. Please pray for her friends.
Anyway, I will again be spending some hours alone tomorrow because they will be going over to Clay's moms to visit with the niece and his brother. It's an Easter family get together.
No way I can sit that long away from home.
So as you see I am going to have to work at getting myself over this stupid depression I'm falling into. If I had any money yet, I could buy some "gems" and get busy with challenges on my Pogo club games. LOL!
So off to read some posts my friends. Hopefully I will find some fun ones. Sorry mine sucks.
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@celticeagle (168420)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Apr 22
At least you only have a couple of days to wait. We have to wait until May 1st before we will have some money. Hope your daughter is feeling better. I think you need to watch a comedy. That helps me.
Hope you feel better soon. A couple of days maybe?
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@celticeagle (168420)
• Boise, Idaho
18 Apr 22
@bunnybon7 ......Thank you. A windfall would be nice. No relatives left to leave me an inheritance. Yes, my daughter will go to the food bank if needed. So you won't get your money until today?
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
18 Apr 22
@celticeagle I was hoping for today but my daughter says it's set for the 3rd Wednesday of the month. I don't know. I just know they always said on or near the 17 th. No it's not there yet. 
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
18 Apr 22
yes I hope only a couple. I forgot that 17 th fell on Sunday, Easter and you know how the government works. You don't always get that widows payment until they have to let it go.
Anyway, isn't it sad when we get to the point we are wishing our life away for need of that next darn check. I agree about watching comedy it helps.
I pray and wish for you a wind fall or inheritance of a large amount of money my friend.
At least your girl will go to a food bank and help the family out. 
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@DaddyEvil (137696)
• United States
15 Apr 22
I'm sorry, hon... If I had extra, I'd give you some of it.
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
15 Apr 22
Oh I know. Mostly I'm down because I will be alone for who knows how long. Plus I'm worried about my daughter being out and about while having this problem with what sounds like a heart attack waiting to happen and she won't listen. I guess nothing I can do about it but pray.
I will have money in a couple days so thats not as much a problem. I would appreciate though, prayer or good vibes toward my daughter here. As she obviously has no sense. I'm hoping it's just panic attacks and she will be fine till she sees doctor.
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
17 Apr 22
Yes it is for so many these days.
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@LadyDuck (472087)
• Switzerland
18 Apr 22
@bunnybon7 - Everything is so expensive.
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@paigea (36315)
• Canada
15 Apr 22
Looks like a wonderful birthday party for a little boy.
I hope your daughter is okay. I'm sorry you're having a gloomy Easter
We are going to see some family. We have some sad times in our family right now, so will be a quiet weekend. Hopefully comforting.
Take care
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
18 Apr 22
I hope the weekend made all feel better with you there.
@paigea (36315)
• Canada
20 Apr 22
@bunnybon7 Thank you. I think getting together helps. We didn't get talking about our grief, but we spent time together.
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
20 Apr 22
@paigea It always helps to have family around or just good friends.
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@RubyHawk (99405)
• Atlanta, Georgia
16 Apr 22
@bunnybon7 You’re welcome. I hope everything works out for the best.
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@CarolDM (203422)
• Nashville, Tennessee
18 Apr 22
@bunnybon7 You are always welcome Bonnie.
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@CarolDM (203422)
• Nashville, Tennessee
18 Apr 22
@bunnybon7 I will hope for the best.
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
17 Apr 22
yes I often wonder if it's just my age makes it harder then it's ever been or if it's this awful house we live in that keeps us all sick or just our same bad luck.
Daughter is seeing the doctor Tuesday.
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@kaylachan (71918)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
15 Apr 22
Don't feel bad for expressing yourself. You should feel comfortable posting what comes to mind.
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
18 Apr 22
I just know it's no fun reading a lot of sad stuff for people. Thanks for reading
@Traceyjayne (1784)
• United Kingdom
15 Apr 22
Sorry to hear you are having such a bad time of things at the moment. Things will get better in time.. although it may seem hard to think that way right now Your my lot friends are here for you ... Just post and we will have a chat....
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
18 Apr 22
I really didn't feel then much like posting. I just watched some comedy on tv.
@LindaOHio (181931)
• United States
16 Apr 22
Happy Belated Birthday to your son. Sending along prayers and thoughts for your daughter. Please don't be depressed. I hope things will improve for you. I miss out on a lot of things too. You just have to stay positive. Sending virtual hugs. Love the picture.
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
17 Apr 22
thank you, it was a great time in my life
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@Kandae11 (55175)
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15 Apr 22
You have friends here who can give you advice and comfort. I myself was having bouts of depression after reading certain news items. I spoke about it and most of the responses were comforting.
Are there any food banks in your area? There was a mylotter from the u.k who collected a bag of groceries every week or two - l am not sure.
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
15 Apr 22
I'm sure there is but every time I mention it to my daughter she says I have to find out who to call about when it's in our area. It seems they move location?
