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I beleive this is true to a point. All of the things that I have been educated in I have done just for money. I don't like small offset printing, nursing or tourism hospitality anymore. I want to make money from my interests, the only thing is is that my interestes are shifting to things that I have never thought of before. I want the balance between life and work and don't want to work late hours, or hours that are so unreasonable to me like a 18hr shift for 7days in a week just for money. I want a life. I don't think I can even explain the angst I'm feeling over this properly. Most of the industries that I'm educated in require me to work long and late hours. I'm fairly fed up with them. I want normal hours where I can eat and sleep regularly. All I want is my afternoons and weekends for me not for work, which seems to suck the life out of us all.

a normal life means that you can do everything within your knowledge and yet find time for yourself and others as well. a good job is a job where we can have fun and not just earn money. it's better to earn and have fun at the same time.

Oh yeah, a much simpler life is what I'm looking for. Just need to find it. Its very frustrating though.

This is how I feel, if I can pay the bills and buy enough food, then why would I need more money, when more money means less time for my happiness.

I think it's more to do with the choices you have made at the moment, after a while you realise that they may not have been the rite choices and new choices need to be made. Thanks for your comment.

I have a girl that I live with, we are no longer going out. She works at the same place so this is another part of the problem. I can't ever seem to get away from her either. I know it sounds rough, she does love me but I don't love her. I am getting to the point where I resent living with her. I had a rule which was to not get with someone at work though I feel like I've been pushed into a relationship with her because she is so good at munipulation. She doesn't understand and would rather argue with me about my decisions and then say that she isn't arguing with me. She always wants to direct my attention on her as if my decisions are based all around her. I'm not even with her. Every movement I make she questions me on it. Every time I do anything she thinks it's to do with her and wants to know why I did it. When I choose either to not to tell her there is an argument about it for days, over nothing. When I do tell her, as if it is her business anyway, there is an argumant about it for days. I wish she would move out because it's my place and te owners have said that I am first on the lease so if I want her to go all I have to do is tell them. As I said I want a new life and I thought that we could be friends but she thinks that that means that I will get back with her and I cant even look at anyone else even though I'm not with her without her giving me a guilt trip. Damn sick of this situation too. I find that I don't have the patients for it anymore. I've told her this the other day. She said that it was great for me to tell her this while she was so vulnerable and that she doesn't give me guilt trips. This is a contradiction in my mind. I don't feel that I have to suffer for the sake of her continual hurt emotions. It seems to me that she lives in a fantasy world and unless I tell her everyday until she cries that I'm not with her and don't want to be with her, she won't get it.

Hey you seem at a major loss, the country is not good for jobs, I know I was born in the country where the only jobs there are make you a pittance that doesnt pay rent, let alone food. Go back to the city, at least there you will have more choices.

This is more of whet I wanna hear. I think it's great you found something that gives you your life back. Hope I can too.

My priorities have totally changed to the point that just about everything thats in my life rite now apart from my cat, HAS to change for my own good. I can't afford to worry about others feeling on this subject any longer. I need it to change now. Thanks for your comments.

This is what I'm hoping to do. Sometimes it feels like I'm gonna be stuck doing the things I'm doing though. Every job I have gone for so far have rejected me on the grounds of experience. The Tai Chi class is just one change for the better as far as I'm concerned, I also want to do Yoga, just have to find a place for it. The more classes I do for myself though the more work is complaining that I am not available for them to use me to their advantage and goals. I want out but can't quit qithout having another job first. My first class in Tai Chi is tonight. Can't wait. By the way, Mo' says hello back. He really did, I told him and he meowed a hello back. Lol.