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NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 21 Feb 19

I can't stand it when someone tells you that they lied about something because they didn't want to hurt you. To me, finding out that someone was dishonest is much more painful. I'm struggling with someone right now, who still is...

honesty

lies

pain

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NerdGirlUSA The hardest thing about lying is that you have to remember the lies that you told. So yes, they always end up getting caught in the end.

21 Feb 19

NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 17 Feb 19

It's going to be a beautiful day and one of the residents has invited me to go to the swimming pool with her. I am excited to work on my suntan in February, one of the reasons I love living in Florida. Hope all of you are...

swimming

beautiful day

friendship

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NerdGirlUSA I ended up not going, I spent the day being lazy in bed instead. It was a little too warm for me, I have fibromyalgia and the heat makes me sick.

17 Feb 19

NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 17 Feb 19

It's going to be a beautiful day and one of the residents has invited me to go to the swimming pool with her. I am excited to work on my suntan in February, one of the reasons I love living in Florida. Hope all of you are...

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NerdGirlUSA It was 85 degrees today.

17 Feb 19

NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 6 Feb 19

Today is the day that my husband goes to court for the charges here. After that, the other county will have 5 days to come pick him up. Then 5 more till he sees a VOP judge. Then it could be anywhere from 30 days to a year before...

cosmic connections

friendship

soulmates

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NerdGirlUSA Turns out, the answers were right in front of me the whole time, I just didn't want to see them. The boyfriend in jail turns out had been lying for quite some time. And the inexplicable connection I tried so hard to prove to myself was a mistake-- well, I'm...

14 Feb 19

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NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 12 Feb 19

It takes guts to change your path, especially when it comes to relationships. I suffer from severe social anxiety, yet I hate being alone. I am trying so hard not to rush into this new adventure. Does love happen in an instant? Is...

courage

risk

love at first sight

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NerdGirlUSA @Nana49 everything happens for a reason. If he is meant to be your soulmate then perhaps a new relationship will be something to make him realize what he did not know he had. Or perhaps your soulmate is still out there so you must keep your eyes forward and...

13 Feb 19

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NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 11 Feb 19

How do you get someone to want to spend more time with you? I am thinking that maybe I am making myself too available, which can seem undesirable. All I do is think about him when he is not here, but I don't think someone can miss...

romance

desire

unrequited love

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NerdGirlUSA Well something must have gone properly, because the energy seems to be changing. It's a complicated situation for both of us, I am bipolar and he has schizoeffective disorder. Beautifully messy and horribly complicatedly uncomplicated.

11 Feb 19

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NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 11 Feb 19

My son was taken from me by child services three years ago, but the pain is sometimes still as harsh as that cold night wind. His adoption was made final last week, he was adopted by one of his father's family members. Some days...

hope

broken families

addiction

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NerdGirlUSA @MistyckMoon ironically, today I have been burned by my kindness, although unintentional. I helped several people get free government phones, and my application was flagged due to too many accounts at this address. Sometimes I forget that I have to help myself...

11 Feb 19

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NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 11 Feb 19

My son was taken from me by child services three years ago, but the pain is sometimes still as harsh as that cold night wind. His adoption was made final last week, he was adopted by one of his father's family members. Some days...

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NerdGirlUSA Sometimes it is hard when someone leaves the shelter, because noone ever says goodbye. I think most people leave here trying to forget this part of their lives happened. Even our dark days are part of who we are. And for me, if I can help someone better...

11 Feb 19

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NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 10 Feb 19

I shouldn't have said anything, I think he is now afraid to talk to me and the voices in his head are agitated. Perhaps it because they know if he is happy with me then he will not talk to them. I have to fight the urge to seek...

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NerdGirlUSA @Nevena83 Nothing ventured,nothing gained, as the saying goes. And nothing is lost, things are just a little confusing right now, chaotic.

11 Feb 19

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NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 10 Feb 19

I shouldn't have said anything, I think he is now afraid to talk to me and the voices in his head are agitated. Perhaps it because they know if he is happy with me then he will not talk to them. I have to fight the urge to seek...

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NerdGirlUSA @ScribbledAdNauseum I can hear my grandmother's voice just now, "well honey, just pray for them." And that's really all you can do.

11 Feb 19

NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 10 Feb 19

I shouldn't have said anything, I think he is now afraid to talk to me and the voices in his head are agitated. Perhaps it because they know if he is happy with me then he will not talk to them. I have to fight the urge to seek...

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NerdGirlUSA The more savage the pain, the greater the love. I choose to live my life without any gray, only black and white, all or nothing. I love with every part of me, and when it is lost I hurt with every part of me. Tis better to have loved and lost as the saying...

11 Feb 19

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NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 10 Feb 19

I shouldn't have said anything, I think he is now afraid to talk to me and the voices in his head are agitated. Perhaps it because they know if he is happy with me then he will not talk to them. I have to fight the urge to seek...

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NerdGirlUSA @ScribbledAdNauseum I am sorry that someone blamed you for his illness. I suppose it is easier to blame someone else than to face the fact that many times it is genetic. Deep down she probably blamed herself, and that is the hardest thing to cope with.

11 Feb 19

NerdGirlUSA @starflye78 (260) • Daytona Beach, Florida 10 Feb 19

I shouldn't have said anything, I think he is now afraid to talk to me and the voices in his head are agitated. Perhaps it because they know if he is happy with me then he will not talk to them. I have to fight the urge to seek...

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NerdGirlUSA It is based on partial truth, and the person I am speaking of is a schizophrenic. But there is also another girl, who hurt him. He and I are just friends, I chose to write about it from the perspective of how it might be to be in a relationship with someone...

10 Feb 19

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