angel_smiles

@Lolaze (5093)

St. Louis, Missouri • Age 40

Joined myLot 9 years ago

Trying to keep my mind right, my soul straight, and my heart strong. Mental health advocacy/special needs kids/animals. Stay grateful!

angel_smiles's Discussions

Well that was interesting...

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 14 Mar 23

I almost always wake up a bit before my alarm, but last night I must have stayed up too late because I woke up to it today. I still had plenty time to get ready for work but as I stood up I realized I was shaking uncontrollably!...

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Yes I'm Bored At Work

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 13 Mar 23

I got a new job as a teacher at an alternative school in October, shortly after my mom had a stroke and moved into a nursing home. Somedays are wild but others are extremely boring! The students work at their own pace on a...

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Back Again

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 8 Nov 22

Okay so I swear I'm back this time for real. The last few months have been wild. My mom had two strokes which have sent her to live in a nursing home now. She's doing pretty decent though and also getting help for her mental...

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Mom Had A Stroke

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 21 May 22

Right when I started writing again, my 77 year old mom has a stroke. She’s okay. She spent 3 days in the hospital more for pneumonia than the stroke. Sadly, she has refused any physical therapy and gone right back to smoking!...

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Lost Dog

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 21 Apr 22

Has anyone have a dog escape but then make their way back home after a few days? Our 17 year old blind dog has been missing for 24 hours after pushing a board loose from the fence. She was only gone for 15-20 minutes before we...

pets

dog

missing

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What A Little Rat!

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 7 Apr 22

This is Dobby. Dobby doesn’t like sharing my attention with anyone else. Today I was on the phone and had it on speaker, while laying on the bed letting Dobby run around. He climbs up on my chest and looks right at me before...

rat

pet

funny

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Motivation.

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 6 Apr 22

I have none! A ton of it is due to depression but also some due to side effects of the medication I take for the depression. Chicken or the egg situation for sure. I’m hoping when I see my doctor next week that we can begin the...

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4 people

New Life?

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 27 Mar 22

I really am going to start posting here again, I swear! It’s been a rough few months as I suffered from sudden kidney failure and then my elderly mom had pneumonia. Almost dying did make life smack me upside the head - I gotta...

life

work

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Can’t Sleep

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 19 Jan 22

I have 99 problems and can’t come up with a solution for a single one. (Who knows the song reference?). I missed a dentist appointment today after spending 8 hours in the emergency room with my elderly mom last night. I have at...

adulting

stress

anxiety

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Random Annoyance

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 2 Jan 22

I wrote here years back a bit about my encounters with the county mental health services. All has been quiet for quite a bit - good caseworker, etc. I even managed to get an individual therapist there when usually there is a 2-3...

substance abuse

addiction

therapy

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Oh no! RIP Betty White

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 31 Dec 21

I just heard that Betty White passed away earlier today! I am so sad. I grew up as a little kid watching Golden Girls with my mom. Did you know it was the first show to discuss the HIV/AIDS epidemic? I was so little that I...

betty white

death

actress

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What are people doing for Christmas?

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 24 Dec 21

I hear that many people are celebrating the holidays with family this year. Due to COVID, I am spending the holiday alone for the second year in a row. I haven’t seen my aunts and uncles and cousins since 2019! Many of them are...

christmas

covid

celebration

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10 people

Addicted to CNN

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 9 Sep 20

That’s my mom. She watches two things - CNN and crime shows. She’s so bad about it that I’ve actually locked out CNN before (she was so mad at me). And she wonders why she has anxiety... With constant bombardment of the...

news

stress

politics

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Sick Pet Rats

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 9 Sep 20

My pesky boy rats are off to the vet again in a few hours. One developed a skin infection after a lice incident and isn’t responding to treatment, and all have respiratory issues that aren’t responding to the current antibiotic....

pets

sick

veterinarian

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Wow....

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 4 Sep 20

So I have never made a secret of my mental health issues. Sadly, with the insurance I have, therapists are hard to find. I’ve been seeing one for a bit and she insists I have to be in group therapy too in order to see her. It’s...

mental health

therapy

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Writing Every Day

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 30 Aug 20

My new goal is to write something, anything, every day. Has nothing to do with earning here on MyLot, I just have to get back in to writing. It used to be that I could sit and write all day, in high school I would write amazing...

writing

habit

daily

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Passing the Time Online

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 29 Aug 20

I have spent a lot of time gaming lately. It’s become a way to feel at least a little connected to the world while staying home due to all the COVID issues. World of Craft is my go to since I like PC gaming. I’ve been puttering...

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Halloween Countdown

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 25 Aug 20

Is anyone else here a Halloween fanatic? I am completely obsessed and rightfully so - its also my birthday. Yep, I was born on Halloween night. Is it any surprise I dressed as a witch most Halloweens? We are just over two...

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Sunday Evening

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 23 Aug 20

I took a lovely hot bubble bath this evening and used my new almond milk and honey body scrub. Love it! I won’t be using it before going outside though, the bees might think I’m a honeycomb. It’s been a rough day anxiety-wise...

bath

relax

sleep

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Sick...and Drama

angel_smiles @Lolaze (5093) • St. Louis, Missouri 23 Aug 20

Well it looks like I won’t be doing much today. I’ve managed to wake up with a fever. So much for grocery shopping as planned. I doubt it’s anything serious - probably just allergies acting up, but I’m not going to head out in...

illness

family

drama

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3 people